I feel like blogging AGAIN. Never felt so enthusiastic about blogging before.

Anyway, I feel a sense of lost now. For no reason. Okay, perhaps there's a reason. I feel really tired, mentally that is. Not with schoolwork, cos' it tires me ALL THE TIME and it's like part of everyday's norm.

But I'm feeling tired because of acquaintance, in other words, FRIENDS.

I think it's only a matter of time to be drifted away from friends that used to be as close as glue. And it's also a matter of time to be left out in what ever happenings. I know I might seem extremely paranoid about everything but only I will know how this sour feeling feels like. It's intricate.

Well, I feel so TIRED to always take the initiative to meet with friends and talk to them. I mean, I really wanna meet and don't wish to blame anyone cos' I know EVERYONE's busy like a bee, including myself. But I just grown out of it and feel extremely drained out of it, whenever I get constant rejection and dejection. Whoever I may be referring to, it's obviously not about an individual, it's really a whole bunch in fact.

I don't know what else will come or whatever. I really envy those who have lots of friends celebrating birthdays with them. PLEASE, I'm not trying to hint anything or whatever, I'm just speakin from the bottom of my heart. Just that, come to think of it, I doubt ANYTHING significant or worth remembering will happen on my birthday. Well, simply go ask around who remembers my birthday, SCARCE amount!

Okay, will stop here, I'm TIRED! REALLY TIRED.

Currently, I'm mugging for Speech Com test and this really sucks. I hate mugging and has never liked it. To my surprise, phonetics will be tested too! WHY?!?!?!

Weird symbols and BIZARRE-looking passages full of phonetics. Rush hour for Proposal essay with Meiyi tomorrow, and I seriously hope that I won't be late for Socpsyh tomorrow.

En passant, I received a WARNING from the school via email. For poor attendance for Socpsyh, well, was really dazed upon seeing that email. It's just a warning cos' if I skipped Socpsyh again, I'll be debarred from the module. WHATEVER!!! I won't skip anymore cos' I'm scared and wanna be a good boy.

I smell the Monday blues. ~~~

Okay, I seriously heed to the advice,
"Mind what you blog."

Sorry if I offended people in any kinda ways, but I'm just being frank and truthful. Cos' I guess people tend to get insensitive when bloggin about their frustrations. Well, if you're feeling really frustrated, go tell the person straight that you really don't feel like photocopying notes for him. Gel, I think we just learnt that in Socpsyh lesson that day isn't it, Assertiveness right?

This entry is really no scandal or insult for anybody, but it's just my way of blogging, I seldom conceal names unless it is REALLY TOP SECRET for what ever TOP FBI agency. I seriously thought it was just a case of misunderstanding and miscommunication. No condemnation from me or anything. Though I grumble like an ass, but I do know my limits and not bear grudges. Be nice, make peace. All I ever wish for.

Ola people. I realised tagboards are really a useless board of shit, it 'spies' your computer just like any other lame spywares out there. What's more, it simply just serves as a gizmo to prove your popularity. IN OTHER WORDS, for highly egoistic people who loves to be popularized by the number of goodies who tag their blogs, NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE AT ALL. Cos' even I used it before, BUT I'm not using it anymore. Please be really glad about it.

By the way, bus drivers these days are really egocentric pimps. They will really try their VERY BEST to avoid your bus stop! Damn infuriating. They simply treat you like as though you're a hungry ghost from hell in the seventh month and just can't wait to steer clear of you. WHAT THE HELL?! I'm no zombie lah! And there you go, abandoned by these egocentric drivers.

Anyway, enough of rantings. I still love this world though it really sucks big time. By the way, SEGAFF or King Gaffy if you preferred that! Your 'scary' lameass clip was really shocking and scary. I ADMIT THAT. But do you know that you just committed such a grave sin that nothing in this world can cleanse you off? That sin you committed was for scaring the shit outta me! Accept your eternity demnation as what goes around comes around! I'll scare the shit outta you SOMEDAY, do anticipate.

I'm back to blogging, I hope so.. Anyway, I've learnt to become very anal about every little thing. I gotta give credits to the rigid school of anal-ness that I'm in right now. Lecturers, if you're reading this, go ahead, I know you people got your means to read our blogs someday somehow. But I'm still thankful and grateful for such anal-ness instilled in me, in a way that is. I became more disciplined but I still hate the rigid and inflexible system. It's ironic but true.

I've no idea how to put such a 'hatred' for the system into words but only those who been through it will understand. Cos' I know no matter how bad and terrible I described it as, people will still doubt my words and treat it like bullshit. There're lots of ignorant people like that, not that I'm trying to be pessimistic or something, but I just love doing things my way. Writing essays my way and not stick to the usual rigid format like a superglue.

But this is life isn't it, waking up to reality is a must. I know I CAN NEVER do things my way. I admit it. Rules and regulations are such a norm that we all have to heed by, like we got a choice?