I feel like blogging AGAIN. Never felt so enthusiastic about blogging before.

Anyway, I feel a sense of lost now. For no reason. Okay, perhaps there's a reason. I feel really tired, mentally that is. Not with schoolwork, cos' it tires me ALL THE TIME and it's like part of everyday's norm.

But I'm feeling tired because of acquaintance, in other words, FRIENDS.

I think it's only a matter of time to be drifted away from friends that used to be as close as glue. And it's also a matter of time to be left out in what ever happenings. I know I might seem extremely paranoid about everything but only I will know how this sour feeling feels like. It's intricate.

Well, I feel so TIRED to always take the initiative to meet with friends and talk to them. I mean, I really wanna meet and don't wish to blame anyone cos' I know EVERYONE's busy like a bee, including myself. But I just grown out of it and feel extremely drained out of it, whenever I get constant rejection and dejection. Whoever I may be referring to, it's obviously not about an individual, it's really a whole bunch in fact.

I don't know what else will come or whatever. I really envy those who have lots of friends celebrating birthdays with them. PLEASE, I'm not trying to hint anything or whatever, I'm just speakin from the bottom of my heart. Just that, come to think of it, I doubt ANYTHING significant or worth remembering will happen on my birthday. Well, simply go ask around who remembers my birthday, SCARCE amount!

Okay, will stop here, I'm TIRED! REALLY TIRED.