Tragic... Sorrows... Regrets... Unspoken emotions... There are simply just too much of self- reproaching to be done. What is going on? I feel so lethargic and fatigued. Yes, we all have a common and equal yet insufficient time of 24 hours to spend everyday, time management? Let time manage us? Or we manage time? A simple word TIME with just one syallable and four alphabets can actually mean so much to all of us, we can't survive without time. Even if there are no more clocks or any devices used to track time, that does not mean we can just live without spending a time of 24 hours a day! I know this may sound very inlogical or ironic to some or it simply does not make sense at all. But time will always be there forever, unless this world stops turning.

Give thanks to the One who created us, Miracles are wonders and phenomenons carefully planned up by God, choose to believe in them because it's a priceless gift that no money can buy, that no history artefacts can ever replace, that no great and mighty political leaders can ever reign... It occurs everyday, in different corners of the world, what we see around us can be miracles of different scales, small or big, minor or major, does it matter? A miracle can happen even when you see a flower blooming out of nowhere, don't always take for granted that miracles can only happen to people of high status or in 'holy' places, it can even happen now, right at your doorstep! Believe in them, and they will come to you someday...

It's raining outside as I'm typing this entry, it was a day when I really "woke" up from my own world. I love the weather now, it's truly cooling and I can feel a sense of tranquility as I listen to the dripping water droplets of the pouring rain.

I got back some of the papers of my Prelims, on the surface, I may look as if I don't really give a shoot about my "illustrious" results, but deep inside me, I'm really regretting badly and remorsed. People may find me a NAG when I kept telling them "I will work hard from this day onwards, no more distractions...", I know people were finding it very annoying and they thought I'm not gonna mean what I've said. Well, people out there, this time round, I'm for real, really will give in my best shot for the 'O' Levels. People, look out for a miracle coming. I will prove it. I know I can. People out there who are struggling, don't ever give up! 4E3 can make it, God will bless us but as His children, we should give in ALL we have so that He can shower us back with ALL the blessings He can ever give. I shall endure all the way just for this short period of time and after the O's, enjoyment and fun will look for me automatically.

" Father Lord, I pray to you that you will free me from several temptations that I'm often having which are drifting me away from my studies badly. During this short period of time, please help those who are taking O's this year to really concentrate on their studies now. Give me and everyone around me strength and wisdom to do what is right. Thank you Lord. In the name of Jesus Christ, I pray, Amen. "

Well, hope everything will turn out smoothly with our own hardwork and of course, God's help. The rain has stopped, I guess it's time for me to stop as well, Goodbye.

Yeah, it's just another wasted day/night for me, felt good when dining in Pizza Hut in the afternoon cos' Mrs Tan really dote on our class alot, Thank you Mrs Tan! The pizzas were alright but I wanted Hawaiian Pizza VERY BADLY! And the waitress took a freakin long time to bring our pizzas to our table, and she said "Sorry, we can't serve you Hawaiian cos' we ran out of dough..." OK, fine, OUT OF DOUGH?!?! Woah! Are you kidding me?! I waited for a "decade" for it, and she told me no more dough! Doh~! In the end, we ended up with Chicken Supreme, guess what, I had diarrhoea after eating the pizzas. Just my luck... After the treat in Pizza Hut, we took some class photos there and I was so bored after that. I had nowhere to go! It's still bright daylight at 16 30! I really don't feel like going home so early, what a pathetic state I landed myself in. I went for Plan B, eventually, I still went home! ALONE!

As usual, went home and had a good ol' nap again. I feel so dull today! Watched Singapore Idol RELOADED, it was a great show with very great meaning in it. Rossalina had a really great voice!! Frankly speaking, she can even outshine some of those who were already chosen into the competition, it's really unfair that she did not go in, I think the judges were just biased against one's physical looks and appearance. People like Christopher got in merely because of his looks, I don't think he has a great voice anyway. It's just so unfair. The touching part was really the part on the malay guy who sang Solitaire, I truly admired his courage and attitude towards life, and he really sang the song from the bottom of his heart, that's what I call an Idol! Such a waste that he gave up the opportunity of getting into the competition, but can see he gave it up because of his family, great man of principles! Rocky Wang really got the potential to be a male Soprano, great performance! Thumbs-up for the duet performed by the speaking-defect performers, they are really people whom we should learn from, never give up for your dreams no matter how difficult it is! They really motivated me and captivated my heart.

Another wasted breath, exhale! Goodbye.

We write to apologize.
We ask to look past life as it goes by.
I know you have sacrificed time,
life, love, time to fly.
Please consider all things right,
forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.

We write to patch things up,
maybe not to agree but to proclaim love.
Let's look ahead and then we'll see the one
whose glory never ends.
And based on that we'll see,
there'll be room for change, but gradually.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

If all is said and done and over,
if we don't have to, we're not going to.
Make the change, it's worth the try.
What's broken can be fixed tonight.