And yes, I'm jealous, but how can I not be? Any comments made by me means nothing much to you, I can feel that strongly, so please don't try to deny, it's pretty obvious. Yet any comment made by shan can be so important to you that even when she is angry, you get so worried and upset, and you try all means to apologize or make her feel better, but when I'm angry, do you even care?! You simply don't! Any normal friend will be jealous alright? En passant, I'm not a gay by sayin all these, please don't be so thick-skinned thinking that I'm having a crush on you or what just because I'm jealous okay? I'm jealous as a FRIEND, and even IF I'm a gay, I can find better guys out there. Besides God and your family, shan is your most precious, I understand that point to a full extent. Sometimes, I just do not get it! You really left me with an abundance of question marks!

I agree with you, I wished I hadn't known you, I really question God why He let us meet each other, it's tragic. Things would have gone better for me and you if we hadn't met, isn't it? I know I sounded extremely crude and blunt here, but I just wanna voice my unhappiness once and for all. It's matter of time that you read this, you can hate me all you want or just be extremely angry. My main purpose is also to give you a mirror-like image to reflect yourself, you think what I said was true facts about you? If you are sensible, matured and wise enough, you will agree with it. Or you can also disagree with me, but that will only show how narrow and shallow you are. I've finished my piece, thank you for reading.

What a "friend" I used to have, it truly disappointed me and hurt me deeply. And if you think I have not treated you as a true friend before, you are so wrong. If not, what happened that day, whatever replies you gave me that day would not even bother me at all, and when you called me on the phone just to cure your boredom, I would have hanged up the phone and let you rot. But because I valued you as a true friend of mine, that's why I said many things to you which you think I was bullcrapping, never mind, you got your own theory of logic which I doubt it can be recognized out there. And once again, your last sentence really hurt me alot. Think again, I did not help you at all? Think harder alright. Okay, MAYBE, in your eyes, I only harm you but not help you. Anyway, I'm done.

Alright, didn't blog for quite sometime, cos' I really have no mood to blog for the past few empty days... Anyway, I'm using this time now to blog when I'm not in school today, cos' my left ear was blocked mysteriously again. I can never concentrate in school with my blocked ear, being deaf ain't fun at all.

Well, it's a miserable amount of just 2 more days to one's goodbyes. It's almost time for Departure, time for take-off, time to let go, time to relinquish, time to bid goodbye, time to part, time for our Last Call in the Terminal, time to Depart to our Final Destination and end our chapters of life in Here. We've all come so far, it's the final judgement for all of us, parting is inevitable. 2 more days to spend time in the humble classroom of ours, 2 more days to laugh and joke together, 2 more days to observe each other once more.

After that fateful day, all will come to an end, Gates closed, never will we have any more opportunities to arrive and land onto this Terminal in the same flight and have lessons as usual. Teachers will stop scolding or nagging at us, they will start to keep our memories of them rooted into our minds, be it good or bad memories, we all have matured out of all these.

Friends whom I'd came across during this voyage of 4 years, all things have changed drastically. Drifted far apart with some, yet gelled close together with some. I just wanna say, no matter how cold we treated each other, you are still my Friend, my friend who gave me wonderful and unforgettable times during my early years in this voyage. I know, up till now, we treated each other like strangers, yet we could sense each other's presence and avoid each other. I really do not know how to talk to you again or how to talk to you as though we were so close last time. Because it's just so different now, there is no more bond between us anymore, perhaps, things may just remain like this forever. I do not blame you anymore, but I hope that someday, you will read this and ponder about it. May you continue to serve the Lord with all your heart and God Bless.

Routes to different future, for me, I know God had it all planned up for me. I just hope that CI is not the place God had for me. Having heard from actual conversations from CI students, the attitude of the people there are really incompetent.
"Well, the history exam today was fine, just that during the midst of the exam, everyone were like looking out to the window, watching the beautiful scenery."

I was amazed, how ill-rotten can the people there be? Well, if the masses are going for CI for the first 3 months, I might consider, but that's only when worse comes to worst.

Goodbye Hillgrove! Hope the pioneer flight that we are taking to depart will be a smooth one! Glad to be on-board! God Bless.

Personal recollections made its way and settled down into the vast yet empty shell of mine. They are real and non-fictitious, yet some were so unreal that I'm still unable to recuperate from the pain and misery. Losing these individuals of courage and perserverance, it made me felt a sudden emptiness in me, I was in a perplexed and dumbfounded state. I felt like an empty vessel because it was all too much for me to take. WHY? It was simply too much for me to swallow, too much for a simple one day, too much for a 15 year old adolescent to handle, God came into my life since then. I was saved, through His Grace and Glory. This marks a new genesis and a fresh new beginning in the enduring voyage called LIFE.

Coming back to the here and now, year 2004, the era where terrorism, disasters and epidemic reign. To an Ordinary graduating student taking his major 'O - Ordinary' Level examinations this year, leaving this school is a joy and relief yet at the same time, sorrowful. Many of us can't bear to leave but we do not have a choice, we have to leave for good, staying put in the school is a clear and obvious NO. Mixed emotions started rushing up, feelings of regret and desolation filled the atmosphere. From then on, every part of the day spent in the school seemed so important and limited. Very soon, in the coming times, we will all go into our separate ways and no one knows for sure where will we land ourselves in. Life is so unpredictable and dubious, treasure the times we still have in this school, with the mass of people around us, as well as, the ones whom we love.

I guess this is just a very brief account of the Memoirs of Ming, let's all hope and pray for the better times ahead, someday, Peace of goodwill shall triumph and Chaos of catastrophe shall be eliminated for eternity... Goodbye.